New blog!

Regarding my working life, decided to open another new blog! catch up with me ya
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Working Life

Well, its been a long time since i updated this blog.. I will come in and make some updates soon..

Wishes Granted (sincerity)

I remember at my birthday this year, I made 3 wishes.

1. My grandma will get well soon
(and this had became true, my grandma will be back to my house soon)
2. One of my special friend, will get well strong and healthy
(This had also became true recently)
3. Secret
(Had came true)

While i was making this wishes, i was by seaside, alone at 2 am, my birth time and waiting for meteor and i can make a wish. With tears in my eyes, i made that 3 wishes.

I now wanted to thank god, that i had all my wish came true and answered~

I love you, grandma.. See you soon in december~

i am typing this in tears again, this time n happy tears!

I called my grandma just now.. She say "a chiang, you at sabah? money enough?" i am so happy!!!

Eat more and get well soon grandma

I called up my grandma this morning, and i say " a ma, you din eat how to get well? if you din eat everyone will worry for you. Eat more ok ma? i will come back in few days time to celebrate new year with you". And she replied "em" she wanna say something but in the end i cant hear very clearly. But in my heart i know she is asking how am i here, ok or not, doing well or not. My tears have become a normal thing now. i have to stell myself in front of her~ i really have to~

Saw, be strong. If not you cannot take care of your grandma at all~

I am in tears

I just received a message from my sis saying my granma refused to eat, and keep asking for medicine that after eat will sleep forever.

I am writing this with tears flowing. Its such a heartbreak that i being her grandson yet i cant be by her side when she need me the most of all time, at this time. I am crying because i feel so helpless and depressed. I am tired, very tired today, and now i cant sleep because i am worrying.

Gonna stay up whole night without sleeping

Take care, my grandma

I have been busy with exams and stuffs, and when i step my foot back on senai airport, i feel relaxed. For the first time in my life i feel not so burdened. First thing i do, eat my favourite things~

I can have say all in a happy toe, but now seem like cant d. Since the day i am back, i found out my grandma is not in good health. So from that day i start taking care of her. Day by day, her condition deteriorates. Initially my dad bring her to Puteri Specialist in JB, and she still feel giddy and faint. So we bring her there another time, and the doctor just say need time. Its because of you, dr, i trust you because i thought you are a professional, and it turns out you are just a piece of shit.

And again her condition deteriorates, i bring her to a specialist clinic in JB, and the doctor confidently gave me assurance that this is only small matter. When i hear that i am so glad, so bring her home hoping for the best. But still her condition deteriorates. I bring her back to the same clinic and the doc recommend another doctor. And this doc diagnosed my grandmother as Alzheimer. I cried in front of the doctor.

After eaten the medicine she starts to sleep the whole day, she even lose her will of speech, lost her strength to walk, and i feed her eat, help her bath, and talk with her. But her condition still not improving, and i called up my aunt in kl and she ask me to fetch her to kl.

And i did, the first night already admitted into hospital, it turns out she have blockage due to cholesterol after MRI scanning. Trust the doc in JB to diagnose differently, the greed of money overcome your feeling of love and care?? One day if your mum sick and you are in a situation same as me i would then see how you will feel.

So for this whole holiday i had been taking care for her, i am sorry if i cant go out with you guys, she is more important than anything else in this world. Today before i come back from kl because i need to back to sabah at 27 dec, i calmly told her "a ma, get well soon, i will be coming back in this chinese new year to see you" and she nodded. At that time i was pretending to be strong in front of her, my heart was breaking. I just wish that she will be as strong as before, can talk can laugh... Thats my wish for now~