i am typing this in tears again, this time n happy tears!

I called my grandma just now.. She say "a chiang, you at sabah? money enough?" i am so happy!!!

Eat more and get well soon grandma

I called up my grandma this morning, and i say " a ma, you din eat how to get well? if you din eat everyone will worry for you. Eat more ok ma? i will come back in few days time to celebrate new year with you". And she replied "em" she wanna say something but in the end i cant hear very clearly. But in my heart i know she is asking how am i here, ok or not, doing well or not. My tears have become a normal thing now. i have to stell myself in front of her~ i really have to~

Saw, be strong. If not you cannot take care of your grandma at all~

I am in tears

I just received a message from my sis saying my granma refused to eat, and keep asking for medicine that after eat will sleep forever.

I am writing this with tears flowing. Its such a heartbreak that i being her grandson yet i cant be by her side when she need me the most of all time, at this time. I am crying because i feel so helpless and depressed. I am tired, very tired today, and now i cant sleep because i am worrying.

Gonna stay up whole night without sleeping