Sleepless night

At precisely 1.23 am now, i am writing this blog just to let off some of my feelings. I guess its strange for me to be awake at this time to write, but somehow, i had become a zombie... Thinking of plant vs zombie (and i wish got a plant come and kill me now)!! My precise feeling now is that i feel so sad, so depressed since a few days ago. I don't know what is happening to me, yet i took everything in stride. Having sleepless night for almost three days.
The things that i had to do now are:-
1. Beam design assignment (I did it wrong in my previous work!! I wanna kill you!!)
2. Slab Design assignment
3. Rafting proposal
4. Tamu gadang proposal
5. Korea proposal

Just back from a meeting just now, and read some blogs from a friend. I suddenly miss home so much, miss the days that i am with you, miss the days that i am with my family. Homesick is quite normal for everybody, but all this while i never had been so depressed and stressed in my life. My exam results is bad. I did study very hard for that, but somehow, the result is not as i had expected. But shall i give up? if i fail 100 times and i give up, do you think i will be here typing this blog now? I know i can do it!!! i just need some time!!!

Maybe some of you are wondering why i use this name prince. This is because i have more friends that are female rather than male, guess i had to trust my mom when she say that i have certain attraction for girls. (haha, geez mum). It is also because first love is hard to get by too. i thought she is the princess of my heart, but then things went wrong. What happened had happened, it is a past now, and i hope you are living happily with your live now.

Its been a long time i didn't wrote a blog already, but now i choose to write again just to depict my own feelings, just to let me and myself know that i am me, and i have the right to write out everything that i want to write. Nobody have the right to control who i am.

I called my friend just to chat with her and she did comfort me, thanks to you lin lin~~ Hope you will see this blog~~ A friend in need is a friend indeed. Actually she is my crush, but really just a teenage crush.. (lol, cerita lama sudah). I am now hoping for the best for A Ying and An Ning, both are my students and they are both taking spm this year. You two, Jia you ok?? i will always support you two de.

And to this very special friend of mine, shall call her by miss pig. Fate does make fun of people sometime, but i do hope you are happy and getting on with your own life now. I am really happy for you~~ I had know you since primary one actually~~ haha... Still remember? You always did put a smile on my face, either by your sillyness, or by your craziness~~ now that we had both come this far and still you are my best friend, i really cherish this forever

And also to you jing, where you like to hear me sing~~ i miss you too~~ i hope you are living very very well now~~ happy and happy ever after~~ haha, with your darling of course~~ You know, sometime i cant help but think, why should i always be the one getting hurt when i know i have you? once i sing and the memories will come back automatically~~ haha

Friends from here, sue sue, vinci, emily, bei bei, all are very nice girls. and i do hope they will be happy forever too.. Wishing that everyting that they do will have success, and for emily, i guess you play an important role in influencing my feelings to write this blog~~

Coming here i feel like my second home. THis place truly is a place where my heart belongs. Its peaceful, calm and quiet. And i love the scenery. After becoming tour guide for so many times, i guess i know the road here more than my friends. Haha. I still remember the day i drove all the way to langkawi using my dad's car. I just got my license that time... Sigh... Another happy memories~~When in sungai petani, that time, jing, still remember?? Stop stop, dont think anymore~~ haha~~ later i type till no sleep~~

Tomorrow ten am having a hydraulic class, yet i still cant feel sleepy.. Current things in my mind is as stated above, but in addition to that, there are some complicated heart feelings too, where i cant state here, i gues only me myself know how that feels. You, i dunno how to describe my feelings towards you~~ i only know its not the correct feeling and i feel depressed cause of this also~~

The clock is ticking, and i shall stop here, for now. i will keep on update this i guess... Maybe i will be singing next time i wrote this.. i hope so~~

Love,

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